Refocusing
Oh Hi!
It has been a hot second since I last posted to this blog (roughly 3 months). And usually what happens to me after taking long breaks away from something I was initially really excited to do, I somehow manage to convince myself that I never actually liked it in the first place and should just let it rot until I forget about it. Thankfully, that line of thinking hasn't completely enveloped how I feel about writing on my blog (or about writing in general).
So when I stumbled across the Blagust challenge, I thought that it was the perfect reason to reappear in this space without it feeling too random. I'm also excited to participate in a challenge that other people are actively apart of because I literally have never been apart of anything like it before.
Today I wanted to talk a little bit about what I'm looking to focus on for the rest of the year because in case you've been living under a rock, we only have about 4 months before 2025 has it's final curtain call. And since I spent majority of the year planning my wedding, I'd like to start thinking about doing other things which will hopefully set me up for a new year that will start on the right foot.
First…what are my goals?
I toyed around with the idea of calling these my intentions instead of my goals because that's what I've been doing for the last few years after taking a suggestion to do so from a random podcast episode. But if I'm being honest, the boundaries around word 'intentions' are a little too soft for me in this season of my life. I think it's ok to have goals that don't consume you to the point that you burn out trying to achieve them. But I also feel like labeling them as intentions, at least to me, makes them feel more like suggestions than things I actually want to do.
Okay, with further ado, The Goals!
Get to know myself: This has the be, without a doubt, the hardest goal to measure. And 4 months certainly won't be enough time to say I successfully achieved it. But it's a goal that I think needs to be written out because somewhere along the way, I lost the plot for who I am. While I was taking care of those I love and trying to manage being an adult in the middle of navigating the pits of multiple depressive episodes, I generally lost touch with who I am. Add in the constant intake of other people's lives via social media (because when you don't really know who you are, you will look EVERYWHERE for a clue) and you have a recipe for a well cooked identity crises. For a while I just assumed that after I felt more mentally stable I would automatically just know who I am and be able to translate that to other people. But as it turns out, it's not actually that simple. So now I'm embarking on a personal R&D journey to hopefully get to the bottom of who I am and who it is I'd like to be.
Write more: A trackable goal. Yay! As I kind of hinted at the top of this post, I thankfully still like writing. But I don't do it nearly enough. I also would like to one day to become a published author. However, in order to accomplish that, I need to, you know, write. So apart of getting to know myself will also entail getting to know myself as a writer. This excites me the most because I have always identified as a writer but never felt like it could be something that I could take seriously unless I was successful doing it. But I think that's a way of thinking I need to put to rest because I'm pretty sure it's keeping me from actually writing.
Starting a side hustle: I think I'm finally ready to girlboss my way out of the hole I'm in. My 9-5 makes me want to chew glass and I don't make enough money to comfortably do any of the Adult Milestonesâ„¢ so it's time I do something about it instead of just thinking about doing something about it. So far I don't have any concrete ideas on how to do this, but I've got a few threads that hopefully goal #1 will help me piece something together.
That's it! I like the look of these goals and I also think 3 is a great number (it's the only odd number I like). I plan on documenting as much as possible in hopes it helps me stay consistent, but also because I think it would be kind of neat to see where I started verses where I end up; which is hopefully better than where I started.
Ta for now!
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